Now I'm an adult, and it's awful. 

I understand why those around me made no attempt to seek or desire change; 

they were too jaded by the systems built to keep them jaded.

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I am jaded now, too, and I don't want to be jaded.

I want to be happy, and healthy.

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I want that for my community, my country, and the world.

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We only live once, but right now

there are over seven billion people

on this planet

living their one life; 

and most of them are unhealthy and unhappy.

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Of the 3.5 million people living in Wales,

I am convinced the majority are miserable.​

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I can feel that the majority are miserable;

and I am of the miserable majority.

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A few weeks into 2025 I was suddenly hit with the realisation that

I am going to die at the end of this.

We are all going to die one day.

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If we carry on the way we are,

that day will get closer and closer

for all of us.

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Ever since I was a child, I have been angry and confused by the world,

whilst having a deep inner knowing that we can change it. 

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so before I die, I will do what I can to initiate that change 

- or indeed, like in the movies, I will die trying.